04/23/2024
6 / 10, exhausted
Latuda ✓
Lexapro ✓
Prenatal ✓ (need more!)
Today has been somewhat of an “off” day. I woke up still tired. But it could be that I’m getting the groggy feeling from regular Latuda use. Or perhaps my huge, pregnant body can’t function at the same pace of my “normal.” More than likely, though, it’s a culmination of the two.
I struggled getting through work this morning. I was soooooo looking forward to my lunch nap. When the time finally came, though, and the lunch was had, I almost felt worse than I had this morning. But it’s okay—I can’t wait until 4:30 PM, though. I’m finna ZZZZZROOOOOOOOOOM!
Once I finished reconciling the AMEX report (hallelujah it BALANCED!), I went through my personal emails and suddenly remembered about my statement for my VA claim. Fortunately, I documented a chronological account of events last year when I finally took Stephen’s (OD) advice and filed my Intent to File last April. I finally decided that I deserved to reap the benefits of my almost decade-long military service, be it Oklahoma Army National Guard service (which changes some individuals’ perceptions of my service when I alert them that I was not on active duty).
Thank You, God! I praise You for giving me the sense to do that!
But goodness, let me tell you, it sucks to remember one of the worst times of my life. My brain does this neat little thing where it forgets my traumas until triggered; it’s both a good and a bad thing. But during my second enlistment, once I had made Sergeant, I was treated very unfairly and meanly, and the effects still linger to this day. Sad. ☹
But above all, I’m grateful that I took these notes down when I did, and again that only happened because God gave me the motivation and inspiration to go after what I deserve – and I thank you for it.
— allie the gargantuan