04/19/2024
8 / 10, excited
Latuda ✓
Lexapro ✓
Prenatal ✓
Yesterday, I became a Mrs. (The punctuation is likely wrong, but what do I know?). Anddd boy lemme tell ya… the reviews have definitely been mixed.
My mother, while supportive of the thought of me finding a man who is willing to marry, seemed almost off-put by that very thought finally becoming a reality.
My stepdad said (and I quote),
“Well, we will see how it goes.”
My grandmother told me congratulations followed by a,
“Time will tell.”
My little brother was shocked, but told me congrats!
My sister… OH SHIT! I haven’t told my sister!
With my “Mr.” sharing the news on Facebook, a lot of my supposed “friends” found out my business. And I am not the type to tell my business like that. Gratefully, I have outgrown that chapter of my life.
I got the “congrats” texts, the “OMG, is he home?” texts, and even the “DAMN! I thought y’all were only engaged” texts. Well, I was engaged and now I’m married, bitches. Of all the congrats, the most meaningful and thoughtful words came from my dear friend Mesha:
“Despite what people say, marriage is not hard. It’s what you put into it. It’s going to be fun, actually. Just be all in with the person that you’re with (whatever ‘all in’ means for you), and everything will fall in place.”
♡
I’m grateful to have met my dear Garrett. He is everything that I thought was impossible for a man to be. His soul is welcoming, open, and inviting. He is gentle by nature, but knows how to protect. He enjoys talking to me, but even more, he loves listening to me. He’s intentional with his words and would rather think about his response than impulsively react. He hears what I enjoy and actually remembers. Where I used to feel pressured to constantly remind my partner, I’m now reminded of things I’d forgotten I had revealed. Where I felt obligated to take care of things on my own amongst the company of another, I feel like I finally could have someone else to rely on. I used to feel alone in the presence of my partner, but now I feel as though I don’t have to ever feel that way again.
I’m forever grateful for Garrett accepting not only me, but the love and light of my life, my Benjamin. ♥ In reality, the biggest and most important part of my life is my son, so acceptance was MANDATORY! And the fact that he openly accepts him means so very much.
So while I am scared out of my lil ole mind, I do promise that I will do my best.
After all, I care for him.
— AF 💙
est. 04/18/2024